03 - it just takes one Yes
A lot has changed since my last petit post.
I secured an internship, graduated from my master’s, packed up my life in Madrid, moved it all to Paris, and now I’m sitting on the couch in my childhood home. I don’t even know where to start or what I want to write about.
Here’s the thing: life is kinda crazy. I applied to almost 200 jobs and got two interviews. I reached out to so many people, and luckily, something finally worked out. During that time, I was also buried under my final master’s project. The combination of schoolwork, endless applications, and the emotional strain of an uncertain future was exhausting.
In the last month of my master’s, I hit a wall. I decided I was done with sending my CV into the void, filling out applications as quickly as possible, only to never hear back. It had started to feel like such an empty process. It’s demoralizing AF. I stopped applying, and told myself that my efforts didn’t succeed, I’d move back home. I started to get comfortable with the idea of moving home; maybe to manage my expectations, or maybe because I genuinely wanted to. I’m not sure. How do we know when the right time to move back home is? Sometimes I am overcome with guilt and longing, and other times I think it’s fantastic this opportunity and life I am gifted with living away from home.
Throughout this stage of figuring out what’s next, I felt torn: part of me wanted to come home and spend time with my friends and family, and the other part wanted to keep exploring. I tried to let things unfold, telling myself that if it was meant to be, it would be.
And it was. It’s just an internship to start, so we’ll see where it goes, but I’m beyond excited. When I got the call, I was ecstatic. I don’t remember the last time I felt that proud of myself. It was a beautiful moment for me.
My job is in Paris. I haven’t been there since I was 16, but I can’t emphasize enough how thrilled I am for this next chapter. The adventure continues, completely out of my comfort zone, but apparently, that’s exactly where I want to be.
Love always,
Sof
