01 - a long time coming
June 5th 2025
You wouldn’t believe how long I’ve been wanting to start this.
I think I’ve made three different websites with three different domains in the past, but none of them felt quite like me.
And, to be honest, sharing my writing feels extremely vulnerable for me. But I love so many things about writing. Building this site was also really, really fun — I loved getting to use a bit of my creativity.
And since I’m doing this all on my own — not to make money or anything — I can do WHATEVER I WANTTTT haha.
For a long time, though, I used to get really insecure about sharing my writing.
I would have thoughts like: “What are people going to think about this? Am I weird for thinking like this?”
And that insecurity became such a barrier that I often couldn’t even sit down to write at all.
a quote by Morgan Harper Nichols that I wrote in my journal to help with some anxiety I was feeling before my first Camino. I think it’s quite fitting now, too
But today, "me" feels different. I am more open and willing to share, even though I still have some way to go. Always growing — constantly changing direction.
Over the past year or so, I’ve started slowly sharing more of my writing with others — through letters to my friends, family… and just letting myself write whatever comes to mind. (A little secret: I can NEVER read over a letter after I’ve written it. I cringe. Maybe that’s a red flag, haha. But I really appreciate letting myself write freely without trying to “perfect” it or tone it down.)
I also started journaling every day, and that’s helped me become much more comfortable transferring my thoughts to paper (or screen).
Writing has always given me a special kind of energy — both calming and energizing at once. And honestly, creating in any form — whether it’s art, cooking, photography, or writing — brings a certain kind of energy that I think is really special. Very healthy for us. But that’s a conversation for another time.
That used to be blocked by my old insecurities about writing, but these days, it feels much easier to sit down and begin. My accountability, on the other hand... well, let’s see. :)
So… here we are. This has been a long time coming, and I’m really excited about it.
I have always thought I write way better than I speak. Maybe that's because I feel more comfortable sharing parts of myself in this form — without all the extra noise around me. But let’s seeeee!!!!
And if you are here reading this, thank you for being here.
I’m really excited to finally be sharing. Let’s see where this goes — notes, not conclusions, after all.
Love always,
Sof
